Trusting God

God is always good, and he always works everything out for his purposes. Being a believer, and always trying to live my life in a way that is pleasing to God, is not always easy, and as a human sometimes I fall. But God is faithful, and he's always there to pick me up. And when I do fail, I am convicted by God, and come to repentance. As a normal, healthy young man, I have a natural interest in the members of the opposite sex. Its not just the constant pressure of society, sometimes I am just really lonely. Annoyingly, it seems impossible to find someone that has their heart set on God. It happens over and over again. I find a good christian girl, and get close with her. She supports me in my walk with God. However, when I demand that we keep our relationship pure, she ends up falling for some guy that just wants to be sexual. Which gets me down, because I end up thinking that I'm all alone, that nobody out there wants to stand for God with me. But, as I said, God is good.

The thing is, the focus of my life needs to be directed towards God, not just now but always. At this point in my life, my relationship with God isnt as strong as it needs to be. There is no point where there is no room for improvement in my walk, and I dont plan on staying single all my life, but at this point being alone is necessary for me to grow in spirit.

 Then it hit me: God is the only one that will never let me down. If I focus my mind on God, and trust him to provide me with everything I need, he will never fail me. I don't need to worry about who I'm going to marry, or how I'm going to provide for myself. God is the one who sustains me, and I just have to trust in him. In this I find peace of mind. 

So now, do I still have interest in girls? Yes of course I do. But it doesnt take up my mind and my time anymore. The girls that come into my life, they will just have to accept that they will never be #1 in my life, because God is always going to fill that place.